A good friend of mine said that phrase to me a couple days ago after I told her not to be afraid to tell people what they need to hear. And boy, her words have stayed with me and lodged in my brain, unable to escape.
Why? Why do those words really dig deep and make me ponder?
Let me share with you a story 🙂
A few years ago, when I was a fourteen year old teenager struggling to survive junior high, I came to an interesting conclusion about myself and those around me. They were happy. I was not.
At that time, I knew what depression was. I understood that it was dark and bad, but I had no desire to go and see a shrink about it. Even though at that time people were beginning to realize the illness for what it was, I still held the belief that if I was strong and slapped a smile on my face, I’d beat it. I didn’t need to see a doctor. I wasn’t sick.
I just wasn’t happy.
It’s almost painful to share this with you, because I don’t really want to talk about depression. It stirs up a lot of the past, things that I would rather leave buried in my journals in my dresser drawer. Poisonous things that I used to think about myself.
But, I know that there are a lot of people in the world who have experienced or still do experience those feelings.
You are not alone.
Our mind is a powerful thing. It can create anything that we allow it to. Truly. Back in those days, I fed myself lies about my worth, my friends, my family, and my image. Part of me tried to battle the darkness, but the other side continued to believe and feed those lies.
However, one person, through all the self-hate and loathing I experienced, stuck with me. That one person alerted others to my aid and led me closer to hope. My Savior.
And you know, I don’t want to preach. I only wish to speak the truth from my heart. I would not be sitting in front of this computer typing this message to you if it wasn’t for him. I would not be alive.
So, you can take that as you will, but that’s my belief and it has pulled me through a lot of hardship. My belief has given me hope where I had none.
Even if your beliefs are different, I hope that there is something that gives you hope every day. Something that gives you the strength to step forward into the darkness. I know I wouldn’t be able to without it.
Anyways, I believe strongly in positive words and using light to combat darkness. If you are experiencing these feelings, if you don’t give yourself enough credit, if you beat yourself down, I want you to do this for me.
Look at yourself in the mirror and tell yourself that you are worth more than you give yourself credit for.
You are doing your best.
I’ll be the first to admit that my best isn’t always good enough. But that’s not going to stop me from trying. And really, with the help of my friends, family, and Great Creator, my best is good enough. And yours is too.
Continue to smile. Push yourself to get out of bed and listen to uplifting music. Fight the good fight. Do something fun on your bucket list! Make a bucket list! Believe and hope for better days. Exercise! Eat healthy! Get a good amount of sleep!
All that crazy stuff everyone tells us to do all the time that we really should be doing but sometimes choose not to do just to spite people? Yeah, start doing those things 😉
Create an outlet, something that helps you to express yourself. Nobody else has to see it. Let whatever is screaming inside of you out.
Then, let others in 🙂
Because you have people rooting for you. Cheering for you and I’m cheering for you too. Take care of yourself because you’re worth it.
And you know, the fight doesn’t always get easier. There are still days where I struggle. Days where I just want to hide from the world and not think about anything.
But I’m learning and I’m growing. I have so many things to be grateful for, like good friends and family who are willing to tell me what I need to hear, not just what I want to hear.
And I am so grateful for their support.
What has helped you find hope? What has helped you push through the darkness towards better days?
Please share below 🙂